20080910

Garbage

(Seriously you dont have to read this - its basically mental garbage)
Today I am just sitting here in the office and wondering......when is this fucking economy ever going to pick up? It has been slow like hell and being in a small office - I have total freedom to do what I want.
Yeah Right!!!!!!!!!!!! and I am exercising that freedom to the fullest - here is what I have done today blogged-commented, downloaded a movie, checked news, responded to emails, had a loooooong lunch and did some, yes you read it correct some amount of productive work. Its getting from bad to worse. Two years back I was working non stop - everyone was going crazy and now I am going crazy.
Last week and a half has been dreadful. Many "old" news and events that I had forgotten or come to terms with started haunting me again. Like they say you can run but you cannot hide - they found me. Result was that I had a crappy state of mind. Having verbal skirmishes Absolutly not needed and I learnt first hand that empty mind is a devils workshop.
Sometimes when you speak to someone or comment on the blog and they dont understand you give them a benefit of doubt but when many of your comments or real life conversations start to get responses like HUH!, WTF did you just say?, WHAT DO YOU MEAN? IS THERE A CONNECTION TO WHAT YOU SAID 5 DAYS AGO AND TODAY....I realised it is ME who is all whacked out.
I can only say sorry to fellow bloggers and people..and am thinking of taking a break.
But then what will I do.....damn it! Am up for vacation but need to save it as I plan to take a longer break and maybe visit home or chances are if the way things are will have to go back permanently if this goes on for another 3-4 months. Many people have Monday Blues - I am turning black and blue here everyday.
Yesterday was another of those days. Alarm conked off, late morning, got a sprain rushing to the car....but was late by 10 mins and got a parking ticket yet again. Then again the misunderstanding of some sort continues its ongoing saga with a particular blog......damn it....WHY is all this happening....who is making me do this when I dont intend any of this. So this is what it is....I am stuck with myself - thats the worst that can happen to someone but it has happened to me.
And to top it now most of the readers will say - Hang in there - this too shall pass......I am Hanging in there somewhere dunno where for a long time and am about to choke or the rope will have to break for me to survive. And this too shall pass - but why did it have to come? is my question.

Well sorry - but had to let all this out somehow.....or else it would have been an aneurysm of my thinking nerves....which I cant afford to let them burst...

wait a call...what...hmmm...yes...YESSSSSSSSSSSSS

achanak some work.....bhagooooo

70 comments:

Princess Mia said...

ok no pravachan n no gyan...am just glkad u vented it out.....

Princess Mia said...

btw this is called hajmola effect hehehe

Solitaire said...

Hope writing this post made you feel better.

*~*{Sameera}*~* said...

It's good to purge it out now and then.Hope you better now.Take care.

Pavi!!!! said...

venting does help rite? ...Wish u a great evening!

•♥•...๑۩۞۩๑♥V♥๑۩۞۩๑..•♥• said...

you must be feeling better now.
:)

Cess said...

take a break yeah u already said u ll take one, make yourself a nice diner or go out in the middle of nowhere and shout everything u want to say till u can t say it anymore because ur lost ur voice! As I say for myself shit happens unfortunately.
'but why did it have to come? is my question' it would be too easy if we had an answer to each question ;( It s cool u made a post on it, i hope it made u feel a bit better after that ;)
PS: I did not know we say 'Monday blues' I thought it was "Monday sucks"

singlendacity89 said...

Ahhh!! My buddy CD!! My couch is opened.. Hell I vent to you and you never even know it is coming.. I just kinda sneak it in on ya!!

I hope you are feeling better now!!I am always here for a venting session! Free of charge! lol

G-d bless
Ne

Compassion Unlimitted said...

Take a break !even if its few hours its ok..LOL
This post would have helped you,so sleep it of man on a peg or two
TC
CU

Ankur said...

didnt we discuss the same???

dumbo.... no bhaggoooooo!!!
mera chura liya!! :P
heheh

Hiren said...

arey bhai ... su thayu achanak? all this economy boom and dip talks ??? koi naa ... aaja mumbai for a vacation back home ... rejuvenate urself ....

and in the meantime ... let me order some huge new state of the art buildings in NY/DC area .... and surely I would recommned you as the architect ... ohhhh where did i save the White House number .... arggghhh ... :)

will catch u on gtalk ... milke gaaliyaan denge ... :)

τ ħ€ ĐάЎđяёάmёя said...

hota hai bhai..kabhi kabhi log galat samjh lete hai..achha hai blog par bhadaas nikal lo...

dekho awards ki taraf ..kinne log pyar bhi toh karte hai aapko..

take care

d gypsy! said...

I started but left it...as u said 'dont read it'

u tc...

Veens said...

I didn't read it at all :) :P :D

Take care!!!

Abhishek Khanna said...

sometimes it is good to vent it out

Cinderella. said...

Just take a break wouldja ?
Always works.

Joy said...

Go for a walk. You work in NY or jersey City. Take a ferry back and forth. That would lighten your mind and pocket :)

Good you let the steam out.

Stupidosaur said...

Dattey raho bhai. Sab thik ho jayega!

gunj said...

And this too shall pass - but why did it have to come? is my question.

this sure is one question ive always been asking!!

Neeku said...

I suggest start running... seriously... It has helped me vent out and let go of....... many things...

but hope you are feeling better now.

Nirmal said...

bhai...kya hua..????

•♥•...๑۩۞۩๑♥V♥๑۩۞۩๑..•♥• said...

join a Gym man..go make some muscles..take it out on weights.

ceedy said...

@all

I am better now....
Thanks for all your kind words!!!1

and Ideas....will try out some of them soon......

ceedy said...

@princess mia

Yes it was a hajmola effect....ekdum saaf (dimag)

ceedy said...

@solitaire

yes it did...finally am learning the advantages of letting it all out

ceedy said...

@sameera
I am better and purged

ceedy said...

@pavi
Venting helps YES!!! Had a great evening - watched a good movie

ceedy said...

@v
yes I am...

ceedy said...

@cess
well I watched a good movie...it helped and it was good to vent it out
and it is right - monday sucks but sunday evening is when one starts feeling low and that is the monday blues

ceedy said...

@ne
Ok - will take up the offer next time

ceedy said...

@compassion unlimited
yeah watched a movie - it helped
pegs will be next week - dry days for ganpati...even the body needs some purging ;)

ceedy said...

@ankur

yes bud...and I owe you for using your dialogue

ceedy said...

@hiren

nothing major....sometimes when things dont move you feel a little perturbed - like to work and sitting idle kills me....so all the bruahaha

Yeah....my future client

cool....catch you on gtalk soon

ceedy said...

@daydreamer

haan munna...pata hai...hota hai par yeh peheli bari life mai seriously I blurted it...usually I simply retreat and keep quiet.....felt good though
and yes the awards is awesome feeling....there is love all around

ceedy said...

@d gypsy

good....

ceedy said...

@veens

expected of you!

ceedy said...

@abhishek khanna

yes it is

ceedy said...

@cinderella

yes its on the books - soon will be absconding for a long break

ceedy said...

@joy
I stay near NY - Jersey City...I watched a movie it helped....

yes it was good to remove the pressure

ceedy said...

@stupidosaur

Liked the smart "choice" of words

ceedy said...

@gunj

well....keep asking - kuch sawalo ke jawab nahi hote

ceedy said...

@neeku

I agree - I need to do something physical....run or gym or play smg...

yes I am better now

ceedy said...

@nirmal

kuch jyada nahi....bas dimagi cooker jam gaya tha

ceedy said...

@v
yes agree....need to vent it out physically...will work on it

Prats said...

All ok now I hope?
Read this last time...and didn't comment...cos I knew nothing I said would make things easier, just adding onto the comments...

Pri said...

will u feel better or not alone if i tell u that im going through the exact same stuckup irritating phase? :-/

yea and i dont want no gyaan/advice from noone too...
and u saved me from typing out a lotta rants...i just read out this post and said 'EGGJACTLY'!:-/

Stupidosaur said...

???

(Liked the dumb "choice" of symbols above too?)

I am really too dumb to understand what you meant. I said something like don't despair, things will work out.

ceedy said...

@stupid

Dude chill that was a compliment

when you wrote
Dattey raho bhai. Sab thik ho jayega!

I assumed that instead of writing in English "hang in there - this too shall pass" you choose to write it in hindi

so you complied with the request but still made your point....got it....

Princess Mia said...

i think u need to have hajmola a lil often now hehe.....will flush out the remaining toxins

aneri_masi said...

ouch! hard day, huh?

baaki all i say is hard, but this:

**Then again the misunderstanding of some sort continues its ongoing saga with a particular blog..**

this is not something you should get upset about. If someone doesn't like your comments, they don't deserve it. simmmmple. jaay tel peeva!

oh, and i commented on your ambrosia post, but it bounced back :( will try again.

Veens said...

arre, nahin... :P

I dint have anything to say accept -it is alright
-this phase will pass
-- dont you worry

etc...

and you only told me not to say such things in the post :D

and thats what I could think to say :)

I knew you will be out wih it..once you vent it!

ok ok I know I am a genious :) :D I just don't say it around always :D :)

ceedy said...

@prats
well its enough that you read it and penned few words...

less is always more ...thanks

ceedy said...

@pri

it it is EGGJACTLY then no need to say anything except
take care (btw it is in the last aisle in the supermarket;)

ceedy said...

@mia

yeah....looks like....till the system clears

ceedy said...

@aneri_masi

yeah hard week....

well forget about all that comments etc....I just have to be calm....biju su

did get you ambrosia comment....lemme check

have a good weekend

ceedy said...

@veens

are genious.....kya re...just your reading this meant a lot....

so go back to important stuf...remember kulfi and pan :P

and am i smelling jealosy since I showed off my awards :P

are you SRK????

Veens said...

huh.. Mr. SHOW OFF :P

SRK..woh kya hota hai?

:) done dea lKulfi and Paan

Deepali said...

:) Life sucks big time (at times) nothing to do but take it all as it comes.

Hehe like the way you ended the post. Don't know if it was meant to be funny but I was smiling cause something sounding so depressing and serious and then boom 'phone ringing gtg'

Glad alls better.

ceedy said...

@deepali

hahah....yes...I started with a lot of pent up energy which as I was writing withered away....so finally was back to my own senses...and the phone ring :)

all well...thanks

ceedy said...

@veens

rubbing it in....with MOOV....

one more on my mantle...hehehe

:)

Cess said...

tell me which movie u watch? i could need a post-sadness/suck-time good movie for future reference ;)

I like the sunday evening low low monday morning blues.. haven t think about it before. ;)

ceedy said...

@cess

haha...think about it and this itself will make you blue :)

and I watched an Indian Movie - A Wednesday that speaks against the ongoing bomb blasts in India...so it was refreshing...

Abreysham said...

life sucks, but then its life-

today feels like crap, but tomorrow is another day-

hang in there-

sometimes sound like empty words to me and I feel like yelling back in the face of the consoler- YOU HAVE NO IDEA!!!

but looking back at those words when the storm has passed, and somehow the words dont seem as hollow anymore. A connection is made, and the healing begins.

Veens said...

:-/

ceedy said...

@abreysham

Hhaha....I did shout at myself looking in the mirror as I am a firm beleiver in Hanging In There Concept :)

ceedy said...

@veens

Huh!

Aaarti said...

hey
I thot i read this earlier and commented.. i did read, guess comment got left out!!

anyways, we all go thru such shitty phases.. the only thing me and my friends do, is GET out of the place, go elsewhere.. movie, drive, or jus the beach!!! come back only when MOOD alright ;D

hope this week is better!!:)

rantravereflect/ jane said...

a rant on a post is the best thing when ya're beaten black n blue :)

geeeeee.. feels soooo fukn good, ain't it??
:)
geeeee,
i'm glad ya're out of ya thinking nerve aneurisms:)

mwuahhh n hugsss :*

*no clever lines*

ceedy said...

@aarthi

hey no problem...this is over and forgotten with...

thanks for the input still...appreciate it.

ceedy said...

@jane

thanks for the sweet words...and you want to know a clever line...with your muaahhhh and hugs....I think you shld definatly read this old post of mine

http://ceedyreflections.blogspot.com/2008/05/umm.html